Mmmm Hmmm

K so I lied me and Keeley aparently do fight. We got in a fight the other week and it tore me apart! We got over it but then something even worse then I could have ever imagin happened! She told me she didn't want to be best friends any more! Oh my hell I didn't know what to do what to say what to think I was just dumbfounded! She said she still wanted to be friends, but how do you be just friends with the person you have been best friends with for over 2 years!!!??? It is so hard! But she is happy and that is important to me. So I am trying to adapt but I wish I didn't have to. I don't think she gets how hard this is on me! I cried for hours, I'm talkin MENTAL BREAKDOWN here! I like sunk into this awful depression! I am not over it and I don't know if I ever will be! But I guess the sang "Life sucks then you die" is true! The thing is, is she was the one thing and person that made me truely happy! She said things like we were to good of friends! And that we relied to much on each other ect. And it just RIPPED me apart. I am still heart broken. But i'm glad that we are still friends! I will mend my heart eventually it might take years but yah.